madness

by night owl

am so upset
that i allow myself
to lower down the protective wall

am so upset
that i allow myself
to be stabbed so much deeper than i have expected

which is more hurtful
the fact that you hurt me or
the fact that i allow myself to get hurt by you

which is more stupid
the fact that i still miss you or
the fact that i allow myself to miss you

strange o strange
stranger in a strange land
living as a strange mansurviving a strange life